Not the Weekend I Signed Up For

Christmas is less than a week away. Yesterday was going to be my big prep day - wrap presents, make a few gifts and just get organized.

That all changed.

I've been feeling on the verge of being sick for several weeks. I would feel icky and then it would go away. I just wanted it to be done. This week it seemed to finally be coming out as I had a pretty good cold. Friday night, following a Christmas party, I had a sudden and severe onset of chills. I crawled into bed and kept turning the electric blanket higher and higher. I couldn't feel the heat of it and I just couldn't get warm. Through all this I had no fever. At midnight I rushed to the bathroom and threw up - a lot. (And the other which shall not be named.)

Wow! My chills were gone. I felt so much better. I was finally able to get warm.

I didn't sleep very well and went to the bathroom again at 4am. I could tell I was feeling pretty weak and tried to rush back to bed. That's where it all went downhill. I passed out and hit my head pretty good on the wall corner. I was carrying a bowl (in case I threw up again) and I think hit my mouth on the bowl on my way down. I just laid there hoping that either Jim heard and would come help, that Josh might wake up which would wake up Jim or that I would just regain my strength to get back to bed.

Jim did hear the crash (which apparently freaked out our cat too) and came to help. As he was helping me back into bed, we discovered the plastic bowl I was carrying had been obliterated. Hopefully I wouldn't need to throw up again. We were amazed that Josh didn't make a peep since this all happened right outside his door.

I was able to sleep for the next couple hours and then Jim and I debated about going to Urgent Care or the Emergency Room. I was most concerned about my ear which was in so much pain. I was worried something had ruptured. Jim called my primary doctor's office and once they heard I had passed out and hit my head, the recommended the ER.

So off we went to the ER and luckily no one else was waiting and I was in a bed within 15 minutes. I had blood taken, fluids and pain medication pumped in me and a CT scan. The scan came back fine and just showed a contusion (bruise). The doc said the vomitting etc was from a bacterial infection from my sinus issues earlier in the week. We were home by noon and after some lunch I slept most of the time until 6:30 this morning even though fighting a fever for most of it.

This morning seems to be the start of a good day. No fever and I feel alive again. My jaw and ear still really hurt. I miss Josh and hope to be able to spend a little time with him tonight.

And through it all, Christmas creeps ever closer.

I Love You, Kevin Bacon

2010 Reflections

2010

Approaching the close of a year tends to bring about reflection for a lot of people. I don’t know that I have done much of that historically or perhaps not very deeply. But this year I am definitely reflecting all that the year has held, not only for me but for people I know.

Earlier this year I was looking at the verse (James 1:2-4) I have posted at the bottom of my blog. I posted it when I was in the midst of fertility and health hurdles and feeling pretty low. I was so happy and blessed with the birth of our son that I considered removing the scripture or finding another one that I felt more applicable. I don’t remember why I didn’t remove it at that time, but it has come to be important again. Not just for me, but for others and the trials they are facing.

A friend of mine has been dealing with her own struggles with infertility and it breaks my heart. She has had other ingredients added to her life situation that she has come to really despise 2010. We both have high hopes that 2011 is a better year for her.

Several acquaintances have been battling cancer. One of them is not facing the best outlook. It’s scary to think about the path he might be on.

Other friends and family have just had various relationship and health concerns that have made 2010 a pivotal year for them.

The community of Facebook also exposes me to various trials and tribulations of people, some which I have never met, as prayers are requested through the network.

Personally, I have had my share of emotional struggles in 2010. Not one is devastating by itself, but I feel the compilation of them all overwhelms me at times. Balancing work with home has been difficult. I have lost a friendship that was very significant. My physical health has had its ups and downs.

But as the verse encourages, I will try to find the joy in these times as I know that God is refining me (and you).

Only God knows what 2011 holds, but I know that I trust God in his plans. I can hope (and pray) for a great year filled with new opportunities. I’m ready for significant change and look forward to what God presents me with. I pray that others are ready to receive His blessings.

Walking!

Josh can walk. He doesn't really know he can walk. But his parents know he can walk.

His problem is letting go. And to quote a friend of mine, "Isn't that all our problem...we can't let go?"

But I am determined to have him walking by Christmas and Jim and I are being diligent in practice with Josh. Only slightly harder than getting Josh to walk, is capturing his successes on video. So here is a really quick glimpse.




Today he let go of the table and walked his few steps to me all on his own without prompting. YAY!!

Christmas Train

Our Christmas decorations have been put up, the tree is assembled and decorated and yesterday Jim got the train around the tree.

This video is so cute of Josh watching the train in amazement.